FIX YOU!

Hey Jimmy! this is for you :')

I have watched this video, God! I have no words to describe, maybe my tears does :'(

beautiw

PS: here if you want to see the video: AVENGED SEVENFOLD - SO FAR AWAY

Yess! Saya Galau :D

Coldplay – Fix You

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Bener, lagu Fix You-nya Coldplay ini memang patut dianugerahi sebagai soundtrack of the day. Fine, saya resmi galau, tapi bukan karena cinta, melainkan masalah kuliah esp PKL aka magang aka whatever you may call lah. Saya galau tingkat dewa, malaikat, apapun itu lah gara-gara PKL. Pertama yg bikin galau, saya belum menentukan secara pasti dimana tempat PKL saya. Memang sudah ada berbagai opsi dengan pandangan positif dan negative, tapi itu lumrah, tiap perusahaan pasti punya dua sisi tersebut. Nah yg kedua yg membuat saya super galau adalah, saya ini selalu takut jika akan memasuki wilayah baru. Misal dulu waktu SD takut ke SMP, SMP takut ke SMA dan begitu seterusnya, takut tidak diterima lingkungan, tidak bisa maksimal, dll hehe :D

Yah walaupun akhirnya tidak selalu seperti yg saya takutkan sih :)

Oh well I know mau atau tidak, cepat atau lambat saya akan mengalami yg namanya PKL. So wish me luck, guys, and wish me for the best!

Thanks Coldplay for this inspirational song :)

beautiw

I Call it EARGASM

Haha maybe im not going to talk a lot about sex because im not the expert.lol I found that article through my tumblr account, yes yess tumblr gives us lotsa informations that maybe we never find in other sources. So, Musical climax like having sex, me soooo agree! Why? because I feel it myself especially when I listen to my currently favorite song by Avenged Sevenfold, Save Me. Save Me is the longest song in their album, Nightmare. On minutes 5:47, Synyster Gates plays his guitar solo. I really have no words to describe his melody but Holy God! Idk but it seems that I feel climax and I get some new energy during and after I listen to this song.

I can't describe what is that mean, but you can read the article and guess yourself why, haha.

beautiw

The Making of "So Far Away"

ahoy folks! miss me? :D

so okay, those lyrics above is one of the "So Far Away" lyrics from my favorite band ever, Avenged Sevenfold. They will make "So Far Away" as their the second video from the album, Nightmare. When the first time I hear that song, it's around July last year, I have already my own video clip for this song. Idk but this video plays itself on my head during I listen to this song. But unfortunately, it's just a dream. They won't use my idea because they have already had their own story to represent this song.

is anybody wanna know my idea about this song? lol I'll keep writing even there's no one want to read, poor me :D

The story is about a girl, she's a big fan of Avenged Sevenfold. She doesn't believe if Jimmy is really die. She believes that Jimmy is here with her now. Until one day, she walks down the street, she saw a man that really similar to Jimmy. Once she doubt that he is Jimmy. Then she walks closer and closer to that man, touch his shoulder, the man turn around, but unfortunately he is not Jimmy. Then she cries out loud, back to her room, shouting and crying on her wall that full of Avenged Sevenfold posters and finally this girl realizes that Jimmy is really gone!

Well, that's my idea about this song. Like I told you, this is just an idea because they, Avenged Sevenfold, have already had their own story :)

Here I'll show you some pictures of the making of this video. I took them from my tumblr. 

enjoy!

Beautiw

so this is where the story goes

1. pertama ketemu, aku speechless saking gantengnya dia

2. dia bilang jalanku kaya cowo

3. dia bilang kalo aku ga ada jaim-jaimnya, duduk ngangkang sambil garuk-garuk :D

4. jalan dari parkiran ke delta, dia kesandung batu, diketawain bocah alay, untung ga jatuh brukk. hihi

5. cape muterin delta, duduk-duduk di depan disctara selama berjam-jam (yg jaga toko sampe pengen muntah kali yak :p)

6. pulang dari delta kehujanan

7. malming pertama di kos, awe!

8. aku pake deh celana pendek punya dia. haha gara-gara celanaku basah sah!

9. pas pulang dari kosan ni, eh motor ga boleh dinaikin di gang, dorong deh gue!

10. rencana minggu pagi ke Tugu Pahlawan batal gara-gara tu tempat super ruamee

11. sebelumnya kita nyasar dulu loh, so sweet kan? lol

12. batal ke Tugu Pahlawan, bingung mau kemana, malah maen ke kampus yg sangat suepi. (yalah hari libur --")

13. makan bubur ayam kepedesan, mau minum eh tehnya panaasss, hahah

14. di kampus ga ngapa-ngapain malah motong kuku

15. ketemu bocah tengil sok!

16. ke PTC jam 9.30, masih sepii, serasa mall milik berdua :p

17. pas nunggu di XXI, nyanyi keras-keras ga jelas

18. udah di dalem studio, depan kita cipok-cipokaannn mulu (kan kita pengen :p), nah samping kita malah maho couple, ohh hell!

19. bingung cari kado sama oleh-oleh buat orang rumah

20. nyanyi Heaven Knows teriak-teriak di Breadtalk

21. milih kado yg pas dengan muka guee! haha

22. masa dia bilang "assalamualaikum" ke mbak kasir yg jual boneka --"

23. beli tiket ke gubeng, dapet yg di pasutri eh pasar turi

JENG     JENG     JEENNGGGG

24. dia kenalan sama ortu (dagdigdugbrak)

25. respon ortu ciamik soro. haha

26. dinner nasi kuning berdua loh :')

27. ehh tapi ada tikus di dapur --"

 28. ngabisin malam senin di rumah :))

29. senin terpaksa bolos kuliah, eh ga terpaksa ko, ikhlas :D

30. breakfast bubur ayam berdua lagii

31. geje-gejean di kost sambil bantuin packing :(

32. cabs dari kost. ke delta lagii

33. pas jalan di delta, kita ditawarin mobil loh, hhaha padahal ga semua orang ditawarin (emang bakat orang kaya :p)

34. nyanyi Heaven Knows & Leaving on The Jetplane lagi keras-keras di stasiun. padahal belakang kita juga ada couple yg lagi romantis banget, kita malah kaya orang gila --"

35. saling memakaikan kutek :p

36. btw depan kita sampe kabur gara-gara suara merdu kita loh :D

37. and finally I have to let him back home :(

38. but we promise to meet each other again, soon :*

39. intinya semua rencana batal, nge-maaall mulu :D

40. inti dari intinya adalah, aku sayang banget sama dia :)

coz he's leaving on rail station, don't know when he'll be back again.

oh babe, I hate you to go :(

Beautiw

Sexy Beast

coz one, you're like a dream come true. two, just wanna be with you. three, boy it's plain to see that you're the only one for me. four, repeat steps one through three. five, make you fall in love with me. If ever I believe my work is done, then I start back at one 

Brian McKnight - Back at One

Smile is A Simple Thing

when you're smiling keep on smiling

the whole world smiles with you

and when you're laughing, the sun comes shining through

keep on smiling coz when you're smiling

the whole world smile with you

Louis Armstrong - When You're Smiling

lagu di atas bener banget banget setriliun!

why?

karena senyum itu simple

senyum bisa kita peroleh bahkan dari hal yang paling simple sekalipun

pagi tadi, waktu berangkat ke kampus, ahh saya kurang tahu pasti kenapa saya sangat menikmati perjalanan tersebut.

yang pasti banyak hal yang bisa membuat saya tersenyum :) 

dari senyum tukang koran di lampu merah, mereka sabaarrr banget nawari koran dari satu mobil ke mobil lainnya, yaaa walaupun ga semua pemilik mobil beli itu koran sih, but honestly itu bikin saya senyum loh lihat ketulusan mereka dalam mengawali hari.

yang kedua, senyum favorit saya terjadi ketika melihat segerombolan anak sekolah, terutama anak TK dan SD, bisa tertawa lepas, with a little fighting sometimes, kadang saya merasa kalau saya sudah lama tidak tertawa seperti itu, benar-benar lepas dan tanpa beban.

melihat isi kota pagi hari, dari segala lapisan, alhamdulillah masih bisa menggurat senyum di wajah saya. anda juga bisa, coba ya kalau berangkat kuliah atau kerja tiap pagi, coba perhatikan sekeliling anda dari penjual koran, pedagang asongan, sampai anak-anak sekolah, they look so beautiful!

ahh andai semua orang adalah observant seperti pisces, I love to see the details, and not everyone could see the details :)

sampai jumpa pada cerita tentang senyum selanjutnya!
Beautiw

West Coast West Coast

I bought a one way ticket
Cause I knew I'd never see the ground
Unless I was aboard a jet plane
And we were going down
When I wiped the tears from my eyes
The warm water took me by surprise
And I woke up beside the ocean
I realized I must be in California

Owl City - West Coast Friendship

I have a very big, even it's nearly impossible.

but this is my dream and am proud to say that

I want to live in California someday!

that Owl City's song become my daily anthem

that song keeping me up and up

keeping me dare to chase my dream

because I don't want if it's only a dream

I want it real!

then someday am gonna loudly say:

"California, here I come!"

:')

We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for #1
California here we come

Nothing's gonna stop me now
California here we come

Phantom Planet - California

Beautiw

Hey Gorgeous, Come Back!

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you
When it lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are untied

So far away

  And I need you to know  

So far away
And I need you to
I need you to know

Avenged Sevenfold - So Far Away 

It's Just a Fiction

This is my second posts about James Owen Sullivan aka Jimmy aka The Rev. I was sooo emotional when am talking about him. I'm not ready yet to loose him :( but this is life, people go people come, what goes around comes around. I feel like a deep losing here inside my heart, I lost someone for I haven't met him personally yet before. But this feeling, I don't know what it's like.

On July 27th 2010, Avenged Sevenfold new album, Nightmare, has come out on the stores. This album actually well tribute to their fucking best drummer, bestfriend, and brother, Jimmy. As we have known before that he passed away on December 28th 2009.

I know I'm late to hear this whole album due to my internet connection and financial problem, never mind! After I listened to the whole songs, I thing this album is more than what it called GREAT! if there's any word that I can say I would say, but I don't. Because this album is too emotionally to be heard and understand :(

I haven't seen tho whole lyrics, but I already catch the meaning of "goodbye" from Fiction and So Far Away, Jimmy's singing in the Fiction, he wrote it and he took the piano part of this song. Do you feel the same like I feel?? I cried very hard when I listen to it, I swear! I feel like something hard banging out my heart, my heart is bleeding, I'm totally lost. I LOST HIM :'( 

Gave you all I had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head
While I may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side 

Left this life to set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me.
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never feel afraid -Fiction-

ps: check the bolding words. seems that he already knew that his time to leave his wife, family and friends will come soon.

Avenged Sevenfold - Fiction

 

At the end, I don't know is it just me or you guys feel it too, I feel like

JIMMY IS STILL ALIVE, HE'S JUST HIDING SOMEWHERE FAR!

agree with me?? do you feel the same?? 

 ♥Beautiw♥