Friday, 15 October 2010

I Feel Enough

          I don't miss my highschool that much. Coz I already feel every feeling when I was in. All the love and hate, joy and sorrow. I feel enough tough. I don't have to wish that I could back into my highschool time. I am now move on, and I don't want to turn back.
         I remember every detail of it. I felt everybody who really loves me, hates me, or stab behind my back. I felt it. And I think it's enough.
          Noooo I don't hate my highschool, am just sick with all the bad memories in the past. Some people weren't good enough to me. Or maybe they hate me..haha for something I did.
          for some reasons, I really don't want to back into my highschool times. I now have my own life and I enjoy this. Although several people said that highschool times is the best time ever. I have my own opinion. I think every moment in our life, has each beauty. Now when we are turn 20, we can can make it. Maybe five years later we can proudly say that this time is our best.
         Ketika kita berusia 20tahun, mimpi bukan hanya sekedar mimpi. Justru disinilah saat kita untuk menunjukan diri, menata masa depan, dan membentuk jati diri. Bukan lagi seperti anak SMA yg bisanya hanya merengek meminta sesuatu. Tanggung jawab moral sangat diperlukan.
         Jadi menurut saya, tiap moment dalam tiap tahap kehidupan adalah saat yg terbaik. Tinggal bagaimana kita dapat menggunakannya dengan tepat (kalo mikirnya pake otak).
Begitupun nanti disaat kita menikah, hingga mempunya anak. itu adalah saat yg terbaik juga bahkan paling indah. So, I feel enough being a highschool student. thanks :)
Beautiw

ps: maaf masih bilingual, haha

Wednesday, 13 October 2010

Untitled

I don't know where do I have to go
to express my self and my feeling
twitter and blog is no longer free place for me to share
I need to share my secret
secret that nobody knows about this
not even my closest friends or my boyfriend
I need an empty room to share
but where?
everywhere is crowded now
I hate to know! 
Beautiw

Friday, 20 August 2010

L.O.V.E

it's a simple symbol composed of two important components in a relationship:
*love and less than three*
it means that love is less than three and it has no space for the third party! =)

GO TO HELL, BITCH!

Wednesday, 11 August 2010

Hey Gorgeous, Come Back!

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you
When it lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are untied


So far away
  And I need you to know  
So far away
And I need you to
I need you to know
Avenged Sevenfold - So Far Away 

Monday, 9 August 2010

It's Just a Fiction

This is my second posts about James Owen Sullivan aka Jimmy aka The Rev. I was sooo emotional when am talking about him. I'm not ready yet to loose him :( but this is life, people go people come, what goes around comes around. I feel like a deep losing here inside my heart, I lost someone for I haven't met him personally yet before. But this feeling, I don't know what it's like.
On July 27th 2010, Avenged Sevenfold new album, Nightmare, has come out on the stores. This album actually well tribute to their fucking best drummer, bestfriend, and brother, Jimmy. As we have known before that he passed away on December 28th 2009.
I know I'm late to hear this whole album due to my internet connection and financial problem, never mind! After I listened to the whole songs, I thing this album is more than what it called GREAT! if there's any word that I can say I would say, but I don't. Because this album is too emotionally to be heard and understand :(
I haven't seen tho whole lyrics, but I already catch the meaning of "goodbye" from Fiction and So Far Away, Jimmy's singing in the Fiction, he wrote it and he took the piano part of this song. Do you feel the same like I feel?? I cried very hard when I listen to it, I swear! I feel like something hard banging out my heart, my heart is bleeding, I'm totally lost. I LOST HIM :'( 
Gave you all I had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head
While I may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side 
Left this life to set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me.
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never feel afraid -Fiction-
ps: check the bolding words. seems that he already knew that his time to leave his wife, family and friends will come soon.
 
At the end, I don't know is it just me or you guys feel it too, I feel like
JIMMY IS STILL ALIVE, HE'S JUST HIDING SOMEWHERE FAR!
agree with me?? do you feel the same?? 
 ♥Beautiw♥